Chapter 57 p2
Yuli bathed and went to bed, exhausted both physically and mentally. Xie Yao was still in the bathroom. This situation was the same as her previous life. He had also said that he would come back every day in the future. At least it was a return to the life before he had gone crazy because of Ye Weiqing.
Before that, he would come back every day. Although he said little, his emotions were still stable, just that he was a little out of line in bed sometimes.
But at other times, he was a very good husband.
Listening to the sound of water in the bathroom, Yuli felt a long-lost sense of peace. She had already left a lamp on for him and had left his place empty. She turned to the outside, closed her eyes, and fell asleep in a moment.
In the middle of the night, the room was pitch black.
In a half-dream, half-awake state, soft, warm kisses fell on her body.
Yuli was extremely sleepy. Her body was heavy, and she didn’t want to move or do anything.
The scene of him sneaking back last night, but only licking her half to death and then running away in a frenzy, flashed through her mind. It was both funny and helpless.
Sensing his kisses sliding downwards, Yuli wanted to close her legs, but they were held open by his palm.
“Don’t touch me,” Yuli was only half-awake, and her words were not clear. She said vaguely, “Come in.”
The scorching body left for a moment. Yuli thought he was going to do as she said.
The sleepiness made her mind go blank for a while.
She was awakened by a cold chill. Yuli gasped for air and stared at the person kneeling on her. She couldn’t see his face clearly at all.
“Husband?”
“Yuli.”
His voice was hoarse, as if it were filled with iron sand, sluggish and dark.
“What is this?” Yuli’s voice trembled. She wanted to move, to retreat, but it was as if she were petrified, unable to move a single bit.
“Don’t be afraid,” he bent down and kissed her face. “You’ve seen it before.”
Yuli thought of the pillar-shaped jade she had seen in the jewelry shop a long time ago.
It was lifelike, but cold and without temperature.
Yuli didn’t like it. Coupled with Xie Yao’s state, her soul was about to fly out, and cold sweat broke out in waves.
“Why are you using this?”
“A couple’s pleasure.”
Yuli couldn’t tell if he was really treating it as a pleasure or if he was going crazy in the middle of the night. But she was clear about her own feelings.
“I don’t want it. I want you.”
Xie Yao paused for a moment.
“I’m not good.”
These three words were said very calmly, as if stating a fact, without much fluctuation.
Yuli’s heart sank. Could it be that he was really self-conscious?
He was the regent and clearly had a pride that looked down on the world. How could he be self-conscious?
What on earth had he gone through?
The image of him in Xihe County flashed through her mind. Yuli’s heart felt as if it were being pricked by a needle, which was even more upsetting than when he had gone crazy.
“No…” Yuli’s breathing was not smooth. He did not stop, but she did not feel any pleasure at all. “Husband, Mingyan, I don’t like this. I just want you.”
Xie Yao pressed her even tighter, but his palm was trembling.
Yuli’s voice was tinged with tears. “Light the lamp and let me see you.”
Xie Yao seemed indifferent. Only his breath was like a fierce wind, scorching her, but the rest of the places were all cold.
Yuli wanted to hold him, to touch him. He was pressing her, tying her, making her unable to move.
She was uncomfortable. He used all kinds of methods and actually made her gradually lose her reason.
At the end.
He held her tightly.
Yuli cried for a while and fell into a drowsy sleep.
She slept in a daze, and her body began to sway again.
Her back was pressed against a damp skin.
His breath was on the back of her ear, and the temperature and scent were extremely familiar.
Yuli opened her eyes. There was a very faint morning light in the room. It was usually the time for him to get up and go out.
Yuli went to touch him. He didn’t push her away again.
But he suddenly turned her over, and he also turned over. “Yuli, look at me.”
He was looking down at her. The dim light fell on his eyebrows and eyes, on his side profile. His skin had a warm glow, and there was also some crystal clear sweat. His expression was deep, and he looked down at her eyes, full of an arrogant pride.
Yuli looked straight at him. He moved his waist. It was not a cold prop; it was himself.
It was dawn, and he was at it again.
Yuli wanted to laugh, but she didn’t even have the strength to move the corners of her mouth.
It seemed that he disliked her reaction being too plain. He added some force. Yuli let out a soft moan, and only then was he a little satisfied.
He held her hand and slid it along his body, which was like a sand dune. He slid it to her mouth, held her fingers, and licked them one by one with his tongue.
Yuli trembled. He seemed to have been encouraged and did the same thing with her other hand.
He pulled her up again and pressed her tightly.
Yuli had no strength and could not cooperate, but the strength in his arms seemed to be endless.
His deep breathing fell on her ear, the side of her neck, and her collarbone.
He insisted on pulling her arms up, wrapping them around his neck. They would slip down several times, and he would pull them up several times.
The sky was getting brighter, and the daylight passed through the bed curtains and landed on their bodies.
Yuli couldn’t take it anymore and murmured in his ear, “You’re going to be late.”
“They can wait,” his chest trembled, as if it were a self-satisfied feeling coming from his lungs.
Yuli bit her lip, wanting to laugh but couldn’t.
…
When Xie Yao left, Yuli had fallen into a drowsy sleep again.
She didn’t wake up until after noon. Xiyun was worried that she would starve and came to bring her food, waking her up.
After Yuli woke up, she finally experienced what it was like to be unable to get out of bed. Her limbs could not move at all. The moment she moved, her arms and legs felt as if they were about to break, and she couldn’t even straighten her back.
There were no marks on her body. It was all caused by overexertion.
But she was also really hungry. She struggled to get up, dressed, and after her meal, she recovered half her breath.
Yuli looked at the door of the main hall and suddenly asked Xiyun, “Can the doors and windows of the room be locked?”
“Huh? Does the Mistress want to lock that person out?” Xiyun looked very conflicted.
It seemed that it was not very feasible. Was there no way to deal with him?
Yuli pressed her forehead, looked at the scorching sun outside, and went to the study.
Xiyun helped to prepare the brush, ink, paper, and inkstone. Yuli sent her away.
On the letter paper, she wrote: Xie Yao, you dog.
Crossed out.
Then she wrote: Xie Mingyan, if you continue to avoid the doctor, I don’t want you anymore.
Crossed out again.
She paused her brush for a long time. Yuli finally wrote: Husband, may this letter find you well…
After writing the letter, Yuli had Jingyu find some wax to seal it carefully, and then had her help to find Song He.
Song He came very quickly.
Yuli smiled at him. “This is a letter for the regent. Please hand it to him personally for me, and help me tell him that if he doesn’t come back during the day, I will lock the doors and windows at night and not let him in.”
Song He paused, tried hard to suppress the corners of his lips, maintained a straight face, and took the letter in agreement.
Song He left the Xie Residence and entered the Imperial Palace. A shadow guard suddenly chased after him and handed him a letter. “The Mistress said to destroy the previous one and deliver this one.”
Song He took it.
Zichen Hall.
The key ministers of the Hall of Political Affairs were gathered for a meeting. Cui Chengbi was also among them.
Song He didn’t care what they were discussing. He took the two letters, walked in, and whispered Yuli’s original words in Xie Yao’s ear. He did not mention the matter of destroying the letter.
Xie Yao paused, took the two letters, and tore open the first one on the spot.
It was indeed Yuli’s handwriting.
He read it line by line.
Husband, may this letter find you well:
From the time we met until now, we have gone from mutual distrust to being respectful to each other. It has been a very difficult journey.
There were misunderstandings later, but fortunately, we have let bygones be bygones.
You are reasonable and have allowed me to go out to do business, giving me solid support. I am very grateful to you and rely on you.
But I know deep down that you are not as strong as you appear on the surface, but also not as fragile as you occasionally show. Recently, your actions have been inconsistent and chaotic, and I am more and more at a loss.
I guess you must have been treated unfairly in your youth, which has caused psychological trauma. I did not dare to ask before and only hinted and comforted you.
Now I probably can’t take it anymore.
I just want to ask, Xie Mingyan, do you have any balls?